Waking up on the 31st of December with a throat feeling like a cheese grater, the snottiest nose ever and a migraine so bad I could hear colours, wasn't exactly how I wanted to kick off the new year. I had this big plan in my head to get back into back into blogging and really hunker down with my uni work, the 1st of January being a Monday was just so satisfying to me, But alas, the universe laughs at those who makes plans and I have now been completely out of action for the best part of 9 days, nursing the flu/virus/infection from hell.
In my anal little brain, I thought that because I hadn't managed to stick to my goals for the first of January, the rest of the month, hell, THE REST OF THE YEAR was a complete write off. Now that I am more or less out the other side with the worst flu I have ever had, I realise how ridiculous that is. There is so much pressure from all angles that January is this big clean slate, this fresh start and that we need to achieve everything in the very first month of the year, that it can be easier to lose sight of the other 11 months. Yes, I am behind but I have another 357 days to make the most of.
I know that a lot of people find these posts a little bit same-y and I understand that, I really do, but I think a huge part of why we write them is for ourselves. Not only as a cathartic exercise but also something to look back on at the end of the year, to see what we have achieved and what still needs a little work. So heres to things looking up for 2018 >
I'm a creative person, always have and hopefully always will be, and I want 2018 to be the year where I really indulge that side of my personality and let it thrive. As I type this, I am just about to put the finishing touches on my first ever bullet journal, which is both exciting and a little daunting. There are so many beautifully curated bullet journal ideas on Pinterest, with beautiful calligraphy and hand lettering to the sweetest little doodles; all utterly lovely but it is difficult not to feel the pressure to follow suit. I am just trying to remind myself that at the end of the day it is a way of journalling to make you feel more organised and productive and if you have the time, means and talent of making it look beautiful, than that is just a bonus. For the moment, I have made some pages that I am really proud of but for day to day, I am staying very minimal and simple - especially as its my first month of doing it.
My university experience has been one of the most stressful, difficult and often lonely periods of my adult life, for many reasons, and although I have had to really take my time and spread out my studies, in May I will have handed in my dissertation and in October, I will have graduated. Something I still can't believe is finally happening. I am testing the waters at the moment for my new post-grad life and it is both exciting and scary at the same time. I'm looking forward to stepping outside the education institute and setting up a new, adult life for myself - wherever and however that may be. I never thought I would get to this point so part of it doesn't really feel real, but I am excited to see where it takes me.
This has been a resolution for me for a couple of years now, but for one reason or another, life has gotten in the way and I haven't been able to finally get myself a little pink licence. I'm really hoping that 2018 is the year I pass my test and finally get on the road. I know it will be the most liberating, useful and necessary life skill to have under my belt and now that my studies are drawing to a close, I finally have the time to dedicate getting behind the wheel.
I am not the best at keeping in touch with people and it is one of the things I really want to work on this year. I have friends scattered all over the UK and all over the world and it can often be tricky to keep up with them all. From Lincoln to Russia, to California and New Zealand, my friends truly are all over the place and I really need to make more of an effort to keep in touch with these people and nurture the friendships that have been so many years in the making.
...And finally (and congratulations if you have made it this far!), explore. There is so much of the UK I am yet to see, particularly the north, and after a spontaneous trip to Edinburgh at the end of last year with one of my best and oldest friends, it dawned on me that there are so many places on my doorstep I still need to see. I love city breaks and staycations and in 2018 I really want to spread my wings outside of my little Winchester bubble and explore this big old world. From Manchester to Huntington Beach, I am ready to dust of my passport, water my plants and see what else is out there.